It has been a while since my last post. During this time the children and I have made some changes.
The kids have started a new school as well as mommy has started a new job. Jenna Bean has started girl scouts. With each of these changes I find that I as a person have sought new coping mechanisms. Whether it be setting time aside in my day to read a new book, or forcing myself to socialize with those around me when what I really want to do is bury my head in the sand.
I have found myself seeking guidance through prayer more and more these past few months. Using that as my own personal security blanket. Telling myself that God has a plan for all things. Even if I don't understand what that plan is. I have to remind myself in his time. Not mine.
As I write these words I realize that I was struggling not just with my security, but Mason's as well. While he struggles with how to relate to others and would rather stay isolated where he feels comfortable. I keep asking myself which is right? To let him stay isolated as not to cause him stress. Or to push him. To make him uneasy knowing that he has to learn to cope with change somehow. I think the answer is somewhere in the middle. Letting him retreat away from the world is not going to do him any favors. While pushing him into uneasy situations which cause him too much stress is not the answer either.
I think about how God pushes us sometimes subtly. Sometimes not so much. But he is always there when we fall. That is how I want to be there for my children.
